an inconvenient truth

"Judgement comes from experience, and great judgement comes from bad experience."
~Robert Packwood

pepsi-caffeine musings

My day was overwhelmingly filled with so much distraction and boredom and particularly overexposure to media (and too many episodes of MTV's Real World: Hollywood). I found out that a family friend just got into Yale, and I got that feeling of wanting to go back to school, something I hadn't been feeling at all for a few months. Patricia Sloane-White didn't go back to school for ten years, all of which she spent in the private sector. She's a person that seems truly happy. I guess I'm just so relieved to not feel that cracked out inadequacy and pressure and the general feeling of not wanting to be in school, which I felt at about the junior-year mark when I realized I still had 2 years left, 66% in quantity of what I'd already gone through, and not 33% like the rest of my friends and my class, and I felt just on the verge of totally lost after declaring my Computer Science major, my fourth at that point. So unless I take another crack at the Boren, which would require stringent self-assurance about my academic whereabouts, flying under the radar for a little while and not doing things according to other people's standards feels good.

comfort

"I find that it is not the circumstances in which we are placed, but the spirit in which we face them, that constitutes our comfort."
~Elizabeth T. King